One of the nice things about my triangle is that I have one "wall" that is all windows. I like having the natural light and being able to see people coming and going. This week it has turned cold and wet again and I would like to formally apologize to the weather for saying last week that it was too hot. I would prefer that to what we are having now. Sometimes I find myself staring out of my window and looking at the weather. This seems to happen more often on wet days, when I'm tired and don't have very much to do. Today was one of those days. Whenever that happens I remember the line from "Sense and Sensibility" that Mrs. Jennings says to Marianne, shortly after Willoughby leaves--"Looking out at the weather will not bring him back."* Today was one of those days when I missed my old life. My brother-in-law, who lost his job recently, is interviewing with The Big P tomorrow, so my sister was asking me lots of questions about working there, and I even miss The Big P. Although it is getting easier, adjusting to life in my triangle is still hard.
I am also feeling anxious because Sweet Pea has her appointment with the psychiatrist on Friday. I am extremely glad that my psychiatrist bent his rule for us and agreed to see her. Normally he will not see two people in the same family. I am glad to see him, since I know what he is like and I have a good idea of how things will go. I am hoping that he can give us some answers after one visit. I'm not expecting a miracle or anything--I'd just like to get started with something.
My sleep has improved and I think that the increased dosage on one of my drugs is finally at the right level. Good night...
*Yes, I know I should win some kind of drama queen award for comparing my work life to a Jane Austen novel.
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