UPDATED -- The Cart Before the Horse

I have another interview tomorrow.  This one is for a position that would be okay, but isn't something that I'm super-excited about.  (Granted, I don't know a ton about the job yet, but it isn't exactly what I see myself doing.)  I've been informed that this company wants to move very quickly--they have a training class that will be starting next Monday.  Putting the cart before the horse, as usual, I am assuming that they will want to hire me.  For an unemployed person, the thought of going back to work should be fabulous.  I need to be working again--I am bored out of my mind, anxious to the point that I feel sick most of the time, and, candidly, we are running out of money.  The thought of going to work for this company on Monday is kind of terrifying.  Taking this job would mean saying no to so many possibilities and it is hard to imagine those doors closing.

Right now I am engaged in another horrible day of waiting...As time moves toward the end of the day, I am more sure that it's bad news from my first choice company.  I can't imagine any scenarios of good news when it would be taking them this long to get back to me, given the fact that I've called and emailed.  I laid everything on the line for that job and there isn't anything else that I can do.  Rejection is never fun.  Most of my rejection during this job search has been very passive-aggressive--people basically just don't get back to me.  It has still hurt a lot and I never thought that I would be out of work for this long.

I dream of good health insurance and 401(k) plans and of my anxiety subsiding to a point where I don't have headaches, and stomachaches and chest pains all the time.  I want so much to find the right job and I'm terrified that it won't find me.

UPDATE:  So, at 3:33 I got an email from Strategic Recruiting thanking me for my interest, but informing me that first choice job was going with another candidate.   I am disappointed, but relieved in a strange way.  Some of my anxiety has been lifted, since I am no longer worrying about that job.  I am still under a ton of stress--I have even gotten to the point where I don't really want to eat.  (Never in a million years did I think that I would ever be so stressed that I couldn't eat--usually I eat a lot when I am stressed.)  Since the company that I'm interviewing with tomorrow wants people to start Monday, I don't think it's outside of the realm of possibilities to receive an offer on Wednesday.  Please let this be over soon.

Finally, something I meant to post on Easter.  I have become a great fan of the blog "Pinterest, You are Drunk".  This photo was posted with the following caption:

NOTHING SAYS "HE IS RISEN" QUITE LIKE A PEEPTINI