As many (if not all) of you will know, since you are my Facebook friends, I got a call today about a position that I interviewed for over 5 weeks ago. My first interview was a phone interview and it was one of the first interviews that I did. I did not feel good about it (there are still answers that are haunting me) and when I didn't hear back for such a long time, I figured that I hadn't made the cut. Today they called and I had a nice conversation with the manager. The position is with a good company that I have always admired. It is an education specialist position and I know that I can do that job well. There is one big question that I need to answer before I can move forward--do I want to start traveling again?
This job has a lot of travel--flying on a plane and staying out of town for several nights travel. On the other hand, when I'm not traveling, I'd get to work from home again. Since it's with a big company, I'm guessing that I'd have good benefits again. (Benefits, I have missed you so...) Parts of traveling used to be fun (although I rarely flew before). The independent part of me would be happy to do that again. But then I think of Sweet Pea and I wonder how she would do. Part of me thinks that it would be better to have quality time with her, not quantity. If I were making more money again we'd be able to do so much more fun stuff. However, The Husband is bad at some things. What would they eat when I was gone? Tonight Sweet Pea got all upset because The Husband was doing her shower wrong. (I was really angry because I was on the phone with my mom and had to get off to fix the shower situation.) This summer I had planned to try out for the symphony chorus and I have been looking forward to that--I think that it's going to be hard (if not impossible) to commit to something like that if I'm gone a lot again. On the other hand, this job will pay well. I'm pretty excited at the thought of getting paid well again. I don't want to make the wrong decision like I did with my triangle.
I'm putting the cart before the horse, since I don't have an offer or even the guarantee of another interview, but what do I do?
I have absolutely no right to answer this question for you, but I think that a job like this would be really good for you.
ReplyDeleteI know I come from a position of privilege when it comes to working and being at home with my kids, but I also know that I'm a WAY better mother when I'm working than when I'm not. And I'm WAY better at my job now that I have kids.
It's not easy...finding the balance is tough, but I think you would start to feel really good about finding yourself again.
And if it sucks, you can always quit :)